Another baby....

It really doesn't help my horomones right now having the best baby in the world. She is unbelievable. She doesn't cry, fuss, bitch, or anything. Only when she is hungry does she get antsy and when she is constipated and FINALLY gets a poop out!! She is a terrific baby and beautiful! I just look at her and fall head over heals in love with her. And now that her smiles have started to come fast and furious and her little "ahhhh" when she smiles, it melts me. Its hard not to want like 6 of her! I know that the next baby won't be just like her, and hell the next baby might even be a crazy little shit, but having her makes me think that I can do it now....
I know that my pregnancies are tough and they affect pretty much everyone I know. People at work, my friends, and of course my family. Not to mention our pockets since I don't work when I'm preggers cause of my issues. And of course now having a little one around the house, who will take care of her when/if I get hospitalized again??? Clayton can sleep through a tornado and my parents don't need the extra hastle.
I sometimes think that I would be on bedrest pretty early again and if I actually followed it this time, maybe I wouldn't be hospitalized. And then she would be young still and wouldn't be walking around the house causing disasters and me running after her so I could watch her in bed and around my room.... She would just play and crawl around probably... Right? haha..... I don't know ugh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Of course I would want to lose all this baby weight first. I almost hit the 200 mark last time and this time I don't want to go over cause I didn't lose the weight!!!
Gym membership here I come.....
But I do know this isn't the time for another baby, but its hard to not want....
Me.